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Working the night shift is weird. I tend to sit here at my desk and think about a lot of things. I think about how cynical I’ve become and how I don’t really like that fact. It’s this persona that I feel has taken over who I really am. I’m starting to miss the old me.

I’ve made a list of goals for next year. I’m not going to call them resolutions because I don’t think that really works (at least for me). So here are the goals for 2010:

• Spend less time online. I spend entirely too much time looking at stuff that doesn’t really matter on the internet. A reduction is definitely needed.
• Take better care of myself. This includes cutting down significantly on the number of sugared drinks and junk food. I’d like to exercise more and try out yoga. As laid back as I seem to be, there is a big ball of tension that rides just below the surface. I want some way of calming some of that and exercise and yoga might do the trick. I’d also like to lose 10 lbs but I think that will come as a result of the changes I want to make.
• Read more. I feel like I’ve sort of stopped reading. I used to love reading. I would read all day. In 2010 I’m going to set aside more time to find my love of reading again.
• Dress nicer. I’m a bit of a slob when it comes to my clothing. You’ll usually find me in jeans, a t-shirt with some sort of funny picture or saying on it, Chucks, and a Yankees cap (usually backwards). I’ve recently started wearing more sweaters and a nicer cut of jeans. It really does make me feel a little better about myself.
• Be more responsible at work. I tend to let my mind wander and end up looking like I’m not doing any work. I move back to the day shift on January 4th and I really want to make a better impression. Things have been a bit uncertain as of late around the ol’ workplace and anything I can do to make myself look better will help me out greatly.
• Lastly, I am going to try to be more positive in all aspects of my life…at work, at home, and with friends. I realize I’m a little hard to take at times and can be a bit of an asshole. Like I was saying earlier, it’s sort of a persona that I feel has taken over. It’s time to take it back.

I think all of those goals are able to be accomplished. If I can quit smoking (like I did this year) I think I should be able to do anything.